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|Wed, Nov 23 2005||100||Orith||
To Orith, if you happen to be reading this:
There was no other way I could think of at the time.
[Times are Verona time - 02:36 in Verona is 1:36 in Tel Aviv]
I'm not sure but it seems to me that it's been a long time since we've
chat, isn't it?
Would you like to do so?
Absolutely. Where are you?
in Italy, Verona for the last 2 years!
have a number?
where are you?
What are you doing with your life now?
Tell me a little bit, please.
I live alone in an ap-artment in Tel Aviv
what kind of internel hour does your computer have?
when did you come back to IsraÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â«Ãƒâ€šÃ‚Â¬Ãƒâ€šÃ‚Â¿
Besides "surviving" which doesn't mean being happy, are you ok?
it is now 4:45 pm according to my computer,
it is is now 3:45 in Israel, where I am at for about 7 years now
I am OK.
"where I am at for about 7 years now" ?????????????????????????????????
got it! I become slow !
do you work for yourself as a freelance or in a compagny?
How come you came back to IsraÃƒÆ’Ã‚Â«Ãƒâ€šÃ‚Â¬Ãƒâ€šÃ‚Â¿
I work freelance on and off the Internet.
I came back to IL after a crisis while in the US that made me decide I want to live here.
You're quit laconic : just answering the questions without details or whatever.
It's rather difficult to communicate like that.
try to re-read from the beginning of our conversation today.
The answers are all there.
If it doesn't help, see if this one does:
Elohim, Rak Shmor Otti Me Ohavai, U-mi-son-ai E-sha-mer be-atzmi.
I still love you, you know.
I didn't say you do not answer;
but I have to ask all the time questions to have details on you.
I suppose it would be easier if you just tell your story without waiting for questions.
You know I'm not complicated and as time passes I look for less complicated stuff.
Have you become a believer (maamine ) ?
And I do not want you any harm and if you believe that I am a danger for you let us quit now.
P.S. Mayby you still love the memory of me but certainely not me
for you don't really know me today.
I do not believe in God, nor is this line from the bible. it is from a song.
In my last e-mail I said I might be a danger to you,
and that I don't think you know that, and you should beware.
I am sorry my metaphors escaped you.
I believe you might also be a danger to me,
but given this last one maybe it is better for me not to try and find out.
I gave you a phone number and asked for yours.
You do not really want to talk to me,
and I have no intention of giving you reports about my life in any other way.
20051123-07.07.me.txt [in reply to the P.S. above]
And if you can guarantee this than why do we bother talking?
Listen I don't understand much from what you're trying to say!!!
Why are you so complicated?
I don't think it's good to talk for the time being;
I prefer - as I always did - writing because writing and reading are nice :
word just flee but what is written stays with you . I'm sorry for my English ,
I've forgot a lot of it. I would be better in french or even italian...
Let's make things clear : I would like to communicate with you,
news from you...to take and give like I do with all my good and dearest friends.
Why on earth would you be harmfull to me or I to you?
Lets not be too clear then.
I do not want to pursue this relationship.
I sincerely regret your decision. But it has always been like that : I
try to reach you and you turn away from me. What a pity.
you did ask me to burn all the proof to the contrary.
I'm stubborn : when I don't understand I ask clarifications until I understand.
Why don't you accept my friendship simply as it is?
Why is it so complicated from the very first lines?
I will try to think of the answers to these questions.
I'll get back to you.
and here they come:
You are stupid for not knowing to stay away from those who call you stupid in your face.
[She did. My next e-mail a few minutes later returned with:
"No such user"]